Awwwww... thanks everyone for your kind words and great suggestions. I think part of my current stress level is getting to know my doctor. I had my last doctor - a woman - for over 30 years and I adored her. She handpicked her successor and even retired 2 years earlier to have him take over - or else he would have went elsewhere. He specializes in women's issues. I find him kind, sweet, caring, and a good listener and he follows through. But I find I get stressed over some things he says. When he told me I needed a biopsy, I mentioned that my last pap smear really hurt - all of them never hurt when my last doctor did them - but a new woman doctor in the office did it and it was really painful until she used a smaller 'tool'. He replied, 'Oh this (meaning the biopsy) will hurt way more than a pap smear.' So he did prepare me giving me vagi- fem tablets to take and advising advil before I arrive. So for 5 weeks, all I could think of was the fact he said it would really hurt. My other doctor would never have said that. She would have been matter of fact and just said that I might feel some cramps and prepared me. But when I arrived, he asked me if I wanted freezing (I didn't know that was an option) and he was so gentle, I didn't even know he had done the pap smear and he did that before he put some freezing in. I found him gentle and kind and caring. BUT when he couldn't do the biopsy, he told me he would refer me and asked if I had any questions. I loved that he didn't rush me. I asked - really shouldn't have - what are the chances of this being cancer? My other doctor would have said, "Well it could be many things, we just have to wait and see." This doctor said, "Well, we assume it's cancer until proven otherwise." That scared me even more. I was trying to be positive - I have no bleeding, my CT scan and ultrasound showed no masses or any issues at all, except a lining of 6mm. But now I'm fixated on what he said. Sigh. Sorry for this being so long - it just feels so good to say this - because I don't want to criticize my new doctor - he really has been kind, gentle, sweet. I mean his office is 40 minutes away in bad traffic and highway driving and twice he set up appts. closer to where I live to help me out - now that is super kind and I would never even have thought of asking him to do that. And it's been a long wait for a biopsy - almost 7 weeks. And I'm still waiting to see a gynecologist. But I need to pull myself together. I have a dog I love and we train together - we actually compete together - and I need to get focused on the positives in my life. I've been putting off stuff - like my hair needs to be cut - and stress eating and I'm worrying too much. I feel like I fell in a big black hole. Thanks for listening and I admire that you came forward and took the time to help me. Beginning this moment, I going to live every moment with hope and joy and take care of myself. THANK YOU SOOOOOOO MUCH!!!