Sister in Christ and pain, your "God" that has not been for you is not outside of you but a part of your fabric inside. Looking outside of yourself leads only to upset because that God is a fairytale.
I assure you that your Father, the source of all life is very real. If you seek and live only Truth, you will find it. The piece of you that seem to disappear the day your beautiful child was born has returned to you, only you no longer recognize it because all of her pain and experiences have been added to it. ofcoarse your not the same, the world shifted the day she died, everything changed. Test the father and I promise you can never disprove the father. Choose it, whatever will be a sign to you that your not alone here. A heart, a word a bird you will see it everywhere and as you seek and know one day restoration is given, the veil of remembrance is removed.
Never forget when you want to refine stone to gold you must burn it, beat it, over and over and over until all impurity is removed mono tomuc gold follows no dementia laws and travels free, the invisible purity.
You are more than you know, you must know yourself in order to stand in your true power and stop the torture of the flesh, You are NOT your flesh, you are not your brain, you are a child of the most high and this place has put you in a trance and this place is terrified that if you awaken your power cannot be stolen from you any longer. Our family grows weak from the refinement that is necessary, we do this to ourselves out of ignorance, we are the punisher. You know the helplessness of watching your child suffer and having no fucking way to stop it, try as we might we could not rescue them, free will, there will be no outside superman coming to save us, its on the inside leading the way out of this prison, go inside forget everything you thought was true and eat the bitter scroll. Time is short. I love you.
Nov 15 2024 my youngest of three sons, my right hand.
Left me by blowing his brains out with my oldest sons gun, the older brother who helped raise him because my husband 11died leaving me with three small boys in 08
He texted me and his girlfriend of 8 years and left. I die every day, having other kids does not make it fucking better, im gutted every second my body screams out for my baby boy. I struggle to keep it under control. My heart and spirit know he is here with me but my body is just not having any part of that. The flesh mourns out of greed, it wants to see him, touch him, hear him, it misses that, my spirit rejoices that his suffering is no more my baby is not in pain. My heart wishes he would have stayed for tge bigger purpose at play, we needed him.
So please know your loved, we are legion and your True Family is here with you. You are never abandoned never unloved. Put your crown back on your head and know who you are, never take it off again.
Never fall for the illusions of this dimension. The walls are coming down very soon.