No need to apologize. You needed to express yourself. This is a great place for that. Who we are is a combination of mind, body, and spirit. Finding our center requires healthiness in all three.

I cannot entirely relate to your experience, however, I know how it feels to be different in the family. It can be so isolating. The rest of the family develops a resentment towards you because you do not want to bend to their will. That means you are stronger than them. Like a bully, they antagonize you because they want you to respond. They want you to feel the smallness of their own lives. They thrive in a world of hate because of their deep self-loathing. The best response to this is to live in a world of love. To be surrounded by those who care.

I do hope your post made you feel a little better. Putting things down in writing can be therapeutic.