It’s scary for sure but I would check with your Dr and tell them your concerns. They can give you some meds to control the seizures while you wait to get it removed if that’s the path. I say live it to your hearts fullest and then get the thing removed. For me the first couple weeks after surgery was strange with what I can only describe as just noise in your head. Feeling of being off a bit and dingy. All said it wasn’t so bad. Small steps back while going through recovery as mine was at the end of 2022 and I still have some slight issues at times. The most annoying was that I lost my sense of taste and the only things that tasted normal was anything with marinara sauce and chocolate. I could tell if something was sweet but it could have been anything sweet and I could say what it was. I had a kidney stone removed several years ago and I would say that was more painful but didn’t take as long to recover from.