Thank you for honoring us with your story. I know you posted an hour ago and I have been processing this gut wrenching and beyond account of your path of Effexor.
I understand more than you can know because of the loss of 2 infants to abuse. I understand......
Hurrah for you for being brave enough to share a pain like no other...the loss of your child. She was the child of your heart, if not your body. I know there are many kinds of pain in the world but this is like no other in my humble opinion.
I am here with you and I suspect there are others coming to stand with you as you open this tremendous pain to share so the burden is not so heavy.
Now you stated you don't know who you are anymore. Boy, I can so relate to you with this. When I was 5, I declared I would be a nurse. I did too, until I became disabled after an operation. Long story short, I had to develop a new identity. Thank you for sharing. I am with you. Brightwings