Bright wings here. Please forgive me for my long absence. I get the emails in my gmail all the time. I promise you, I do read each of your posts and pray for you and all of our issues in this withdrawal process.
Today I am 8 weeks venlafaxine free. I feel wonderful most of the time but not always. Please be aware I also have multiple sclerosis so the symptoms may be from either struggle.
So what am I doing that the rest of you are not? The answer is I am going to Sacred Ceremonies and using Sacred plant medicine. I will be making a series of posts in the coming days to share the many techniques I have learned to deal with panic attacks, different withdrawal symptom fixes and so many things I want to share.
The goal is to lead a happy satisfied life and I am almost there.
If you have not read my previous posts, click on my name and it should take you to all of my posts. I don't want to repeat myself because I am typing with one finger on my phone. I plan on learning how to tether my computer to my phone but other things were always more important.
12 months out of the last 15 months I have been going to Indian land 46 miles from my house to attend Sacred Ceremonies. These Sacred Ceremonies are conducted by Medicine men or women certified by Chief Mooney of the primary tribe in Utah. So anyways, this makes the use of Sacred Plant Medicine legal in spite of the government classifying them as the worst drugs out there.
Now I want to say I am 67 years old and if anyone would have told me I would be using these drugs, I would have become enraged and been kicking their rear ends down the street!!!!! While I do smoke the green stuff, that is the med I use for my MS. I had one dose of MS Medication and vowed I would never subject it to another dose of such a terrible drug. I have had MS for 35 years and except for balance problems and a few minor other challenges I am pretty much symptom free in relation to my MS. I do know I am one of the luckiest folks with MS.
Ok back to what is and has been helping me. At the Ceremonies, the 2 Sacred plant medicines I have used are peyote 12 times and ayawaska twice. This is in the last 15 months. I will repeat myself to say that God has been Consistantly leading me to the next step to completely change EVERY EFFECT OF MY HORENDOUS ABUSE. Sacred ceremonies have done things to change the effects of the abuse beyond my wildest dreams or hopes. I can honestly say I have no guilt, shame, hatred, depression or any bad feelings or thoughts of suicide. I had been suicidal for years while going thru all the many memories of being born into a satanic cult and all the things I learned about what my nights were really like when I believed I was sleeping as a child.
Ok Sacred Ceremonies...to find one in your state, Google the name of your state and native American church. That should lead you to folks who can help you find sacred plant medicine near you.
I live in Missouri. If anyone wants to come here, let me know and I will send information. If I was on my computer, I would include so many links. So I will find out how to do it tomorrow.
I have told my personal physician about going to the ceremonies. I teach them all about them if they are interested.
Each time I go to a ceremony, I go with an intention or goal to have the plant medicine assist in changing in myself. Disclaimer: I was a registered nurse for 21 years. I never thought as my daughter stated, "I would be going off into the woods to get high". It is so much more than that.
The plant medicine works on physical problems and mental ones. In all my experiences as a nurse and in my own healing I have never seen anything work like this....remember, I was in therapy from 1986 to 2011 with a 10 year break somewhere.
I used to be on 13 medications, now I take a bp med and a baby aspirin. And CBD oil 3 times a day.