@jeffroatenberry You've received some very good support and recommendations here. I'd like to say that I'm so, so sorry for the loss of your son. I have seen and heard of far too many deaths from opioid overdoses. Before I retired I worked with adults in a recovery/behavioral agency. I saw so much suffering and pain but I also saw successes such as you describe of yourself. As you well know there is no "magic formula" and recovery is a process that does get less difficult over time.

You ask "is life every normal again"? I don't have an answer for that question and I'm not sure if anyone does. I have experienced intense grief from the loss of loved ones. It feels like the grief will never end. I tried to treat myself with compassion knowing that it was a difficult time for me. I let myself cry which to me feels healing. I also tried to keep up with my schedule but realized that some days I just could not do that. That's where the self-compassion comes in.

Are you thinking you will attend the Zoom meeting for Families Anonymous?