God bless you. I don't know how you did it. My kids are grown and i am retired and I know that I could not do what you are doing. Is your husband still living? My husband has always been rude to some people. He had no friends because I did not like any of my friends husbands He never interacted with the neigbors in the 27 years we have lived here. The only people he could interact with were people who drank and did drugs. I don't use and none of my friends did either. So they quit coming. I had friends over once for supper. He walked into the kitchen and said HI, then he turned around and went back into the living room where he stayed. I was so embarrassed by his behavior. So for years, I went to my friends house and went out with friends for dinner or a couple of drinks, He didn't care if I did that. Went on some vacations with my best friend and he was fine with that. But if he had complained about that, I would probably have divorced him. I am a people person and I will not be stuck at home because no one likes him and won't come here. He can sit by himself. Now he is sick and needs me home pretty much 24/7 because he is falling alot and needs help getting him something to drink or eat. But he is still an addict. He just goes berserk if he thinks a doctor or nurse will mess with his pills. He has been an addict most of his life, but he kept is well hidden from me for awhile, then it came out by his weird behavior a lot of times. sorry for venting, but I have decided that if I want to go shopping, etc, I am going. There is no one else to watch him, I told him not to be trying to walk around becaue if he falls he will just have to lay there until I get home. He has a walker but won't use it. But I still pray for him everyday and I pray for strength and compassion for myself. Have a great day!