Thank you so much for your comforting words. Being a caretaker is very stressful. I now have bells palsy which started yesterday. My left eye won't shut and the right side of my bottom lip is drooping. I have had it before and I recognized the signs. I went to the doctors today and she gave me prednisone. I am just waiting for them to call when they are ready. She also gave me more xanax, thank God. I only take a half of one to help me sleep. Bells palsy is caused by stress among other things. The hospice nurse did come today and explained to Joe what they will be doing. Of course, he lied about some things and I corrected him and he told me to shut up. She asked him why he had no oxycodone left. I told her that I only gave him his 4 a day according to the directions. He looked at her and said that he snuck them when I wasn't around. She said that they would be filling his pills in a pill holder and they would be monitoring them. She said you have to take them as described so we know if they are working for you, If not,we will give you something stronger. I thought to myself that was the wrong thing to say. I can just hear him tellng them that they aren't working and he needs stronger pills. When the nurse and I walked into the kitchen, I told her he was an addict. I don't want him to suffer from pain, but I don't want him abusing them either. If there comes a time when he is really in bad pain, there may be no meds that will help because he has built up such a tolerance. Well, it is in God's hands. I pray for the strength and patience I need to deal with him.