I'm kind of stable right now.....I'm calling my psych in the a.m. to see if I can get in to see her. One MAJOR problem is that she is 45 minutes away and when I get so anxious I'm really afraid to drive. She won't call in any meds without an office visit. MY PCP, God love his heart, is probably while I'm still alive today. But he has admitted that he really doesn't feel comfortable prescribing psychotropic drugs, which I appreciate. I think that's what got me in the trouble I'm in....a doctor prescribed it so long ago and didn't monitor the length of time I'd been on it and didn't realize the physical ailments that it caused. One thing I'm thankful for, she closed her practice and enlisted in the Army to help our struggling troops and Veterans with PTSD. That was one thing we had in common. Her husband served so she really related with me about the loss of my son. I read several books that she recommended that helped me understand why he did what he did....only it was too late for my son. I have tried to advocate as much as I can for our struggling Veterans and their families. We are losing 22 Veterans to suicide every single day....and 90% of the time they are prescribed a cocktail of antidepressants that eventually cause their suicide. These drugs are nothing to be taken lightly. They ALL have a warning on them "May cause suicidal ideation" yet they prescribe them not one, but MANY at the same time. Big pharma is the monster in this world. Think long and hard before you ingest anything....I know I sure will.

@sadiesmom -- glad to hear you are feeling stable right now and that you are calling your psychiatrist in the morning. That does complicate matters when it's hard to drive to see her. Hoping that the anxiety subsides enough overnight that you can get there safely and that she can get you in.