That is hard sometimes. I was pretty overwhelmed when I was diagnosed. I probably was not calm although I did try to stay positive. I was anxious pretty much 24/7. I found this group, and it and the people here have made a tremendous difference for me. I am grateful for information gleaned, glad to give information to others, and grateful for friendships formed. I am glad you found this group to give you information, caring, and comfort. Two weeks may seem like a long time till your appointment, but it will go by in a blink. Write down questions to ask and bring that list with you! Irene