It can be very discouraging not being able to hear. My life story- uncle born deaf- mom nerve deafness- me multiple tympanoplastys with holes in both eardrums. Wore hearing aids until 5 years ago. Wax impaction was getting to be a problem with the hearing aids and my ear wax has to be suctioned/ dug out every 3 months. And then there is always someone that has some type of a joke! I seriously prefer one on one conversation and have told my husband of 40 years that he needs to face me as I read lips pretty well. I know things could be worse! Eustation tube defect is the probable cause of all my hearing issues. I really feel for anyone with hearing issues! Hang in there.