Hi, Healing from complicated grief alone is nearly impossible. I hope you are able to get some help. In addition to personal therapy with a grief pratitioner, there is a really well done grief group that I attend. It's the first Saturday of the month on zoom, 1 to 2:15 Eastern time. You can find out more about Kathy, the grief counselor who leads the group at https://join.caringourway.com/members/6395765.

It's a small group, open ended, drop-in, No commitment, free of charge. There is a small group of us that go every month and have for a couple of years just because it's a nice group of people and there is always something going on with anniversaries of losses etc. And to be there to listen and support people as they come and go. Please think about joining us in Feb. There are people from all over the world who attend. It's a very safe place to talk or not talk. It's less of a conversation than each person taking whatever time they need to talk without interruption. Please think about it. Grief left unhealed grows worse and worse every day and doesn't lead to anywhere good. There is no reason for you to be and remain alone in your pain. Come share. Be.