@barelyhere1 I am sorry that you are going through this. I know this is a tough time as our minds and our bodies seem to remember our worst anniversaries. I do not know if there is anything I can say that can provide any relief other than it is ok to mourn. It is then we can find our greatest strength.

I hope you get some time with your children and grandchildren in the coming days. Finding our purpose can help with the pain. With hugs, Mike.