I can truly understand the way you feel, I smoked for over 40 years and I decided to quit before it was too late, cigarettes are very addictive and super difficult to get rid of because they are a constant companion, I never thought that I would be successful but I did it. I was given Valium in my early 20’s by a psychiatrist who gave them out like candies, I took them for two years and then I got pregnant so I wasn’t going to continue taking them, I was told to get off them very slowly but I couldn’t do it for fear that it would harm my unborn baby so I went cold turkey. I was young and strong with a profound fear of hurting my child and after a month of total insanity I finally stopped craving them. I’m so angry that I let myself go on another benzodiazepine after all the suffering but I did so here I am now dependent on Ativan and wondering how I am going to deal with this one. I would love another chance to be free of dependence on anything else and I’m not sure that I will be able to handle it, now I’m in my 70’s and a two time cancer survivor but somehow with God’s strength I will do my best.