You sound a lot like me - I don’t really have anyone to talk to about what is happening and I too was feeling so scared about it that I found myself crying a lot and feeling so sad and unable to fathom that this is really happening to my husband. It has helped me a lot to read these comments from others in the same position. I finally went to a therapist and just being able to get my feelings and fears out in the open helped me. We are happily married 55 years and my husband is still capable of taking care of himself - but sometimes his behavior and forgetfulness really gets to me. Not knowing what the future will look like is very hard. Take care of yourself!