First I would like to say that venting on Mayo connect really helps. I don’t share what is happening with my friends they know some minor things but I prefer to keep anything else to myself, I know my friends mean well and they worry about me but I don’t want to spend the time I have talking about it.There is only my husband and I no family since I was born in the UK. I am sure my husband has MCL our doctor did a minor test and suggested a neurologist which after much research and finding the right one I found when I called he had just retired. Normally I can get my act together but my husband fell and broke his finger, a trip to urgent care confirmed this today and they gave him a splint and a referral to see a specialist for follow up. It has been quite a year since last year he fractured two vertebrae’s in his back. The splint has gone missing because he does not want to wear it and after constantly asking him to wear it I broke down, I said I was leaving for a while he said not without me and blocked the door. I said I hated him with tears running down my face, I was horrified to hear this out of my mouth especially when he said I will always love you and please don’t leave. OMG all I could think of is this something he will remember and what if it’s the last thing I get to say. I have tried so hard to bite my tongue and normally if I do life is bearable. Thanks for listening. 😢