@lakesofdelray Be gentle on yourself. In time, you might reflect back, even if simply in your mind, and find you respond to different situations in a manner you didn't before. Or, you are more aware of things around you. Sometimes the changes feel slow, and slide underneath the radar, so to speak. Other times it could be a quick lesson. Either one is fine. Please don't stress. And like I said, if one method of journaling doesn't feel "right", there are others!
Ginger