Today I made a hard decision after receiving another email from my father apologizing saying he can do better blah blah blah. He questions me over and over in our conversations. He did this with other family members many of whom are deceased. First I told him in my reply email OK then sent another saying I had reconsiderd. He and I have had years of a communication pattern that was toxic and painful. So I said to him it was my responsibility to do this. Meaning he is free to email me but his number is blocked. We will not be talking. I did call him too so I knew he got my emails and understood. I also said there needs to be healing with this and I was responsible.Yes he falls back into previous behavior patterns. We all do.But I am working on me and I really cannot allow chaos in my life.