So freaking sick of life

You should be talking to a psychiatrist. Not a therapist but a psychiatrist. There are deeper issues here you need to find answers to other than on this site. You clearly have a reason for being here or you would have left this earth already. All the reasons you listed for not living can only be fixed by YOU. It is not anyone's responsibility to entertain you throughout your life. It starts with you though. You need to find out why you are so unhappy. Find a purpose. Do you have pets? If not, get some. Get something to focus on and something that gives you a purpose. Pray about it but be careful what you wish for, even subconsciously, because you just may get it.

I now you are right perfect strangers want to help. in my community there is a group of volunteers who help out because the want to. they put sheets on my bed (I am using a walker) sweep my floors. smile and talk nicely to me. I didn't know there were people like that out there it's really nice!! I can't stay down with help like that. I hope all communities have organizations like that. I pay $20 per month for membership. the local senior center knows about helpful groups to support elderly

check out senior center if you are one.

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While psychiatry can help with symptoms by prescribing medication (it is rare these days to find a psychiatrist who also does therapy), only a therapist or psychologist can help get to the core issues of negative core beliefs, trauma (if there is trauma), etc. A lot of folks get confused with psychiatrist, psychologist and psychotherapist. I am a psychotherapist and have been for the last 20 years and have never known a psychiatrist who also does in-depth therapy. It's a common misconception. Best wishes

I am of the firm belief that our existence on this tiny blue dot, engulfed by the infinite, is all we've got. And all you are is packed into that 3 pounds of stuff sandwiched between your ears. So, IMHO, I wouldn't hedge my bets on any permanent party with a reservation in your name after you check out from Tierra Madre. I've felt like quitting before and been in some deep dark places that made me wonder if life was worth putting up with the pain. But, things can change for the better. I'm a living example of that. I now embrace life and feel pretty good. Like I said, I really don't think there's any heavenly reward waiting for any of us. So, don't do anything rash.

Good luck.😃

With all due respect though, there are psychiatrists that do. There are always exceptions to the rules. Best wishes for a New Year to you.

Not sure if this went through but....

That is my point. As I stated, it is difficult to find a psychiatrist who will also do psychotherapy, not that they can't, just that they rarely do. Typically, psychiatrists diagnose and treat with medication, then refer to psychotherapy.

I'm praying for you, this is the start of a new year, Go out, join a walking group, or try meditation there are a lot of origination that need volunteers,, there is much need, every one feels lost at times, but there is hope through God, love to you and prayers.

I get where you are coming from, for me I read my Bible kjv everyday,I pray, I sing and dance to the Lord by music that speaks to my heart.. I leaned to enjoy the journey. We have one life and then Judgment. God has given us this beautiful planet, flowers, birds, trees, music, laughter etc. Look around we have homelessness, sickness, hunger. Sometimes all it takes is a kind word to give someone a lift in life ,We all have so much to thank God for. He give us the gift 🎁 to experience life as a human, we could have be a fish, a dog, a tree or a rock. The gift of consciousness and life is only of the greatest gift out creator could have given us. Enjoy the journey pray to God
when pain, heartache happen in life remember nothing remains the same everything must change.
I love you my friend ❤️