DUMP THOSE DOCTORS!! I am thin as well, and couldn't get a diep flap. I was devastated because I didnt want "those implants". I felt cancer was foreign and killing me, so I was anti anything foreign. Later I calmed down, and started listening to other options. I'm a 36 C, and told my Plastic "he better get me back there". He smiled & agreed. Now they are implants with fat transferred from my body to fluf them up more. They are Gorgeous, & I fit all my old clothes. Even my sexy V-cut dresses. I am happy I chose a plastic that HEARD my concerns. The one from NWMH didnt understand my pain. He just wanted to slap the implants in & move on. My plastic smoothed my fears, and LISTENED to me. I went into surgery trusting him.
I had Lobular cancer in left breast but didnt want to risk recurrence that would be too late. Lobular is sneaky & hard to detect. I had a bilateral masectomy. I wanted my breast to be the
size I was, and even. I didnt want to liik in the mirror and be reminded of cancer. I want to look like my pre-cancer self. Doing a double masectomy was a scary call. I didn't want to walk on egg shells, and do mammograms. My mind & heart couldn't take. I HAVE NO REGRETS. Everyone tells me they are cute. I have no problem with saying "I kicked cancers ass & got some new boobies".

Your doctors are breaking your Spirit. This is a very hard cancer journey, and they sound like they're making it worse. There are tons of options, and they are blocking yours. Northwestern Hosp diagnosed me, but I went to City of Hope (formerly Cancer Treatment Centers of America). My Cancer journey was amazing Because I had positive, brilliant doctors. I strongly believe in Firing doctors. Follow their "energy"- listen to their advice, but be strong enough to seek another hospital/ doctor who can meet your needs.
Read articles, research, you will see there are so so many options that can help you. Tell them Thanks, but No Thanks! I wish I could go to doctor visits with you- then They will be missing a piece after I tear a hole in them 🤬 . Keep me posted.