@tryingtimes10 You can always use this site as a crying blanket or pity party. Other members will join soon and give you their experiences and helpful tips. Being married 52 years is so momentous that you really do want to share and it’s hard when there’s no one to share with. Just do the best you can.
Do you ever think of moving to assisted living ? You don’t need but he may and it will take some of the burden off you.