I am so saddened upon reading your story. You are right, no one will ever understand the pain that we who suffer from severe, chronic pain are going through(am I making any sense?). I have been fighting chronic pain for eight years as well. My pain originated from a ski fall. I had the pain under decent control up to 2021 when it all came flooding back. Even then I was able to perform most of my normal activities with some exceptions. We moved to another state last year. I fought the move because I had lived in our home for almost fifty years. It turned out to be a good thing. My pain level is sometimes off the chart. Even in the last nine months I am experiencing many new symptoms. What is so discouraging to me is going into my pain docs office with all this pain, and he just sits there and tells me to contact my PCP. No empathy at all. I am nowhere near your condition but am afraid that I may be heading in that direction. I'm not afraid of passing away, but I don't want to burden my wife with a shell of a man who cannot do anything for himself. I can only pray that God will deliver you form your pain according to His perfect will. Try to have a Merry Christmas.