It is very frightening to feel or know you have no control over and outcome. I understand well. It helped me to know I was in the hands of 2 good health care providers. I could have a seizure from my tapering but not long after it began my brain started " waking up". I already had neuroplasticity going from the craniotomy done in 2014. I did make some calls to my providers during the taper for their feedback. I mostly stayed in my apt except to walk my dog. I could legally drive had my license but kept it to a minimum . My biggest regret is being prescribed this drug in the first place. Life style changes therapy boundaries probably could have prevented it. Sometimes health care providers are too quick to use pharmaceuticals.