Hello to all

My Sunday morning awakening was one of confusion and uncertainty, and met with those scary PVCs and tachycardia runs which come and go lately after a long wonderful absence…I thought it was Monday, then looked at the phone and saw it was only Sunday…there was a wave of great relief at that revelation…there is nothing especially going on Monday so why was I so worried about it..?I’m still so grateful for all of the kind responses that I’ve received here from all of you during this year … my wife and I have had two falls this year and several others issues that many retired couples have in their 70’s, I’ve even had some contact with a few fellas that I know from some online meetings… I can’t figure out why this morning anxiety still sticks around… I’ve tried the “quiet thoughts 💭 with the non dominant handwriting” and what comes to mind is usually always the same….this morning’s result was a little different…I wasn’t surprised or startled, but felt hollow as the words I wrote were “regret, wish, past, could, go, back, sad, gone, dead”…. I got moving , unlocked front door, went out on porch and took a deep breath of the wonderful crisp cold 🥶 air into my lungs and exhaled.. and just for a moment , I was in another thought world…”how lucky 🍀 I am to be able to stand here in a safe neighborhood and look around and see, and feel and walk and breathe”…there are so many that don’t have those blessings…I realized that just for this small moment I was unconsciously practicing Positive Cognitive Thinking…I will have to try harder to keep that frame of mind when I am put into an uncomfortable situation by any person, place or thing….and perhaps 🤔 find some online support groups that fellowship on matters like morning anxiety and fear of being old and alone… I’m going to the mall today and walk and look at the candle store and talk to my wife when I get back to my car…I will pass by the Santa Claus 🎅 station and wave…I must try to keep Positive Cognitive Thinking on the surface and practice this Cognitive Behavioral Therapy from me to me when I’m out and about or sitting here by myself…I wish all here a happy safe Sunday and a Holiday week ahead…and then a safe healthy Christmas week
🙏pvctom