I did and didn't take off work. I'm self-employed with a mature book of business and because of advanced in video and e apps during Covid I didn't go to work often since June when I was diagnosed. I am very angry. I can't shake it and my clients don't need to see me this way.

I believe I felt good through treatment because of the way I've been eating. I'm working with a holistic doctor. He is all about getting the body filled with proper nutrition and making sure any vitamin and mineral deficiencies are being addressed. The oncologist is all in board and encourages me to keep this up.

This is the second time I've taken anti anxiety meds. The first time was Lexapro. I took it in 2022 for about 8 months. I don't think it was effective and looking back now I know it wasn't. This time I'm taking buspirone. It's doing the trick. I feel more like my old self.

I understand trying to do this without additional meds, but the way I see it is I was suffering emotionally and that's as bad as suffering from other chronic pain.

I see sleep has been difficult for both us tonight. Mine was caused by my significant other who tonight was a prick and made all kinds of snoring noise. I kicked out of the room and he screamed like a baby for about 20 minutes. I don't care. I own this house he just lives here. If he doesn't like sleeping in another room he can get his own place, but he won't.