@pigeonhead , Sorry to hear that you've picked up another cancer. I'm not sure that the weight of that target ever really goes away, but hopefully it gets a little lighter over time. You are three weeks out from a major surgery. Make sure you give yourself time to recover. Hopefully your breath gets better as you heal.
I was diagnosed with lung cancer in 2020 and recently had surgery for breast cancer. I mentioned to a friend that I was enjoying being lazy, and she reminded me that healing is 'work', so I shouldn't think of it as being lazy. Now I tell others that I'm working as I'm laying around.
I'm glad that you found us, take care.