@melbourneausssie69
I also have ptsd, panic attacks and anxiety/depression but have not had a transplant. I do have chronic pain and had several spine surgeries (I’m 55). It really does sound like you may benefit from an antidepressant to help you. I am dealing with major depression that has been treatment resistant. I take 450mg Wellbutrin (generic is bupropion and it was recently increased from 300 mg to 450 mg) but my mood is flat and I’m still depressed, cry at times, and don’t want to live some days. I am definitely not my former self and feel like someone hijacked my brain and former life. Doctors need to adjust medication to find the right mix and balance for each person. When I had panic attacks while pregnant, Zoloft/sertraline seemed to help me. I may ask my psychiatrist to put me back on abilify/aripiprazole to augment my Wellbutrin since my depression is not improving.

Don’t give up trying to get the right medication to help you manage your symptoms and improve your quality of life. You were given a 2nd chance for a reason and valued and loved. My teen son needs me and I am a single parent with no family so I need to keep trying for him. Praying for you to get the help you need and deserve.