Wow, thank you so much from the bottom of my heart for all of you who had a suggestion and an answer for me. I am so touched. I still feel kinda stupid about being such a baby about my V.A. after reading about so many of you who are battling cancers, or other more serious stuff, I am blessed to not have to deal with any of that, but regardless, it means the world to me to get so many real suggestions from so many women who know what I'm going through. I felt like I was the only one in the whole world this was happening to. And I remember reading an article about 4 years before Vaginal Atrophy hit me. It was about how for some women, sex becomes painful after menopause. Well, I had not had a period in 5+ years at the time, so I thought surely it was not gonna happen to me. Would have already if was going to, right? And I remember thinking to myself, those poor gals, boy am lucky that didn't happen to me...and then a short while later, BAM! There it was. I think I jinxed myself.

Yeah, my husband is a selfish bastard, but he does love me and has made efforts lately to meet me in the middle. He is always very proud of me if I can get through it but sadly, he does still disappear once in a while. Guess that's the downside of marrying someone 5 years younger than me.

I wish better health and no more cancer to all of you suffering during this holiday season. I feel a comradery here with you all that is priceless to me, so once again thanks to you all for hearing me, validating my feelings, understanding, and supporting me in this journey. Guess it's time I realized I am an old lady and just have to accept some things. I'm blessed to look much younger than I am, but it's been a curse in this situation because I wasn't ready for this. Was not yet ready to act and be a woman in her late 50s. I was still trying to pretend I was 40. Gotta just face it. Those days are gone. Love you all, Happy Holidays!
Kristi