Sounding better, M...and sounding off, as you did, to a friendly, supportive, understanding, non-judging community helps a whole lot. I did caregiving for my honey, Jerry, for the three years before he died (stroke, then small cell lung cancer)...and, fortunately, found a national group called Well Spouse, which met monthly. The first two meetings, I said nothing. The third time, I finally blurted out my confession: "I yelled at Jerry. I was so mean! How could I? He's so sick!" and, to my shock, they began to laugh like crazy. "Of course, you did!" and "That's totally normal!" "We all do that"... and in a flash, my "sinful" behavior got normalized. It even became funny...so, yes, a community is, for most of us, I think, essential when you're going through alife challenge like LC. Or caregiving. Or anything, really.