About 25 years ago, when I first started to deal with never ending chronic pain, I went through a period of sever depression, where I wanted to die and actually tried to end my life. I was hospitalized twice, and no pills, counseling, or psychiatrist could break me out of my depression. It wasn't until my pastor came to the hospital to talk with me that I started to climb out of my depression. I eventually learned that by helping others, it actually helps you, both mentally and spiritually. I found that God has a plan for me, just as he has a plan for everyone, and as you seek to discover and cooperate with God's will your attitude toward Life will change. Your circumstances may not change, but you will be able to handle them better.