@pvctom2021 I'm glad you were able to get out for a nice meal. No doubt many of us have that same concern of what will become of us, on several different levels. What has your journaling told you? I once did an Ira Progoff Intensive Journaling Workshop and they suggested we sit in silence to ask a question like you express, writing it out, then use our non-dominant hand to write the answer that comes to us. Is that something you might try?
Ginger