Totally agree with everything you say, Scott. I was another believer that my healthy lifestyle and exercise regimen would protect me from the Big C….what a joke, huh?
I now eat Kraft American cheese on my burgers instead of the artisanal, organic cheddar from the farm near me for $25/ lb!!
It melts and tastes way better and all the artificial ingredients and dyes may actually be why my PSA is lower - and NOT the ADT and radiation🤣!
And being a very lapsed Catholic and altar boy, I am anti-spirituality to the max. But I too envy those lucky souls who truly find peace and comfort in the spiritual realm.
Whenever people say they are praying for me I say “please don’t!” But follow it with a chuckle or a joke because I don’t want to offend them and their beliefs…but like you, I cannot pretend to be on their spiritual level.
I have, however, come to a level of acceptance that does bring me peace. My mantra is YOU GET WHAT YOU GET in life snd then you just have to deal with it. So many of the guys on this forum have such advanced or aggressive disease, yet their courage and perseverance gets them through the most horrible treatments imaginable! THEY are my spirituality, THEY are my strength and THEY are the ones who guide me through this very twisted and unpredictable journey. Best to you!!