I relate to all you are saying. It is good to know someone else is going through the same as me. I have tongue cancer. Have feeding tube, am talking better. Hope to be able to eventually vho back to eating normally. I will be 76 Dec 15th. Feel pretty good. But I get very depressed. I live with my son and have before I developed cancer. I have a daughter who helps aldi. I feel like a burden to them both. I worry too much about everything and everyone else. I always care more for others. I have to put myself first and take care of me. But that is hard to do. What is to become of my life? How can I be happy. I am thankful that I am still alive. But what can I contribute to others. It's hard for my friends to understand how I feel to be with them when it's hard to talk and I can't eat with them. Help me to understand and make them understand. It sounds like I will never be healthy enough.