Hi, kobesnowy! Since you've never had surgery in your life (congratulations on that!), it's not surprising that you're terrified. I felt the same way when I had my first surgery when I was in my 40s. It's normal--and understandable--to feel that way. Let your doctor know how you're feeling and be sure to ask him or her any questions you have, especially the ones that you think might be silly. Ask for resources you might review, such as videos or books. The more you learn about the surgery, the more you probably will be less afraid. I hope this helps!