I wrote this post after my second cycle. It did help to have the reminder. It was Mel who gave me the first reminder after my fourth cycle. We were traveling to visited his kids and grandkids. It's a 5 hour drive and I was an emotional mess., crying mostly and just feeling defeated. Mel says give yourself a break your supposed to feel bad you just had a treatment.

That acknowledgement did it. I still felt all the angst but I felt less pressure to fight it and by not fighting the fear and sorrow it subsided.

That's a strange concept for me, not to fight.

I finished my 5 treatment on November 18 and my last one is scheduled for Dec 9. I reached out to my primary and asked for medication to help with anxiety and I rested more last week. Both those strategies have helped. This cycle my emotions were smoother, less volatile.
Denise