No, I absolutely agree, empathize, and live that way. It's a struggle every day. I just struggled to briefly tidy up, panting, unable to stand without bending my knees and yesterday, standing, waiting for the elevator at docs office, I needed to close my eyes - the fatigue. But, I can't stop and think about that! What keeps me going? I think it's because I see my LC as a for that I must slay daily with little successes. I set little obtainable challenging goals and when I finish I feel like a Gladiator! I cuss at my LC...I heard that I am not supposed to do that. Whatever. Do what takes. Find out what it takes for you. Like I don't have a handicap placard because I refuse! I guess I'm a bit bitter too. I do try to laugh and just say, I am glad that I woke up on this side of the dirt. I have friends that I text a gratitude list to daily and it helps me alot. Depression is real. And I'm so sorry. Please hang in there. Keep looking for doctors. I do it in spurts because it can be so emotionally taxing. I'll fight hard for help for 6 months and take a couple off. GammaGuard IVIG treatments have saved my life. I'm so sorry. I hope you have a good day 🙏🙏I hope sharing helps