I’m sorry you’re going through such suffering, I can’t understand why you were so abruptly taken off your meds after so many years and such a high dose…did you’re doctor retire without helping you to find another doctor or were you forced into a rapid withdrawal? It’s just a horrible thing to hear this and you are obviously very strong but still you deserve help, if you’re unable to find someone yourself then perhaps there’s people here that will be able to assist you with getting the well needed care that you deserve. I hope that your message will get other people on board to help you out, I wish you the very best of care and good health