You are definitely worthy of encouragement on here. I have stage 4, metastasized to the bones and a couple lymph nodes, it's been 20 months. I keep my mouth closed at work but I sure do my share of whining to my wife. And yes, I whine on here as well. There are so many wonderful people on here who are going through the same journey. Don't be too hard on yourself as to how you are dealing with this. We all say to keep up the fight, doesn't mean it's an easy battle. We all just try to do the best we can. I wish you the best on your journey.