I recently had a very disturbing experience and it’s taken me a while to post it, I still find it hard to believe that it happened to me. I have spoken many times here about anxiety disorders and PTSD and it’s been somewhat helpful to talk about it with people who understand how it feels and affects your life. I was going through a very rough time for some time probably due to finding the right medication for me, I don’t adapt easily and often have horrible side effects that just make things worse. I asked my doctor to refer me to a psychiatrist and he did, basically it was an outpatient clinic and they would contact you once a doctor was available. I got called very quickly, even the secretary said I was lucky because it takes up to a month usually to get in. I went to my appointment for a consultation and the doctor questioned me thoroughly, I found myself opening up quite fast about my past traumas…about 30 minutes later he said to me I know a family that shares your surname and he said my brother’s name and his wife. He also said that they are socially connected, I thought I was going to throw up and just sat frozen staring at him. The abuser in my past was my brother, I realized why he brought me in so fast and I’m certain that it wasn’t because he cared about me. Honestly I am still shaking just telling this story.