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Hi @julie67, I thought of you a few days ago, and wondered how you were doing. I'm saddened to hear that you are continuing to have struggles. This sounds like such a hard time for you. I haven't had similar treatments or side effects, and none of us are medical doctors. Clots can be very dangerous. Please remember that you need to take care of yourself, so that you can be there for your animals. How is your heart rate today?

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Thank you , Lisa. As I just wrote above, I think I'm done if I live through this round. I couldn't move or breathe well today from the lobectomy incisions/stitches still. Hell feeling that suffocating feeling again. They 'rile up' or whatever I mean sometimes. The pain from the stitches was unbearable , my feet were hurting/throbbing and my heart is so uncomfortable I am ready to go. I kept checking my vitals . Heart rate ranging from 80-120 just lying down all day. I looked at recordings of it. Yesterday my heart ranged from 45 to 130. All just lying/sitting. Guess it's damaged. Don't even have anyone to ask if it MIGHT return to normal. whatever. Thanks for thinking of me. I realize WHY am I doing this to myself? I have no family to miss me. No good works/volunteer work that will miss me. I've been miserable for years and this is certainly no life going to doctors. the pain, anger. I wish I would have never had the lobectomy and just spent the past few months having the fun I was having in July. Swimming laps, climbing hills, chasing rabbits uphill. Boating. I was FINE before all this. It would be good if I left now. My house I am leaving to a rabbit rescue (NOT Indiana House Rabbit Society now. HA! ) so the sooner I am out of pain the sooner rabbits can be helped.