My first thought after reading what has happened to your life: When you think you have come to the end, that is the beginning.

You are taking big bold steps by cutting out an addiction for 8 months. You are in therapy. You are seeing a psychiatrist. You have lost everything. So now you are free to make a clean start with your life. You are seeing physicians about your health. Do not look back. If you do, you will only calcify and get stuck. Keep moving forward. You are making so many strides!