Hi @mbryant1380. I am also three years in on this journey and everything you just shared is why I sought a mental health provider. I know different insurance or lack of it can be very daunting, now online reasonable cost sources helpful, so I hope you have someone that can assist you with the calls etc. if that’s helpful. It seems the things that worked for us before just arent enough with the complexities of our challenges here. Things like cognitive behavioral therapy, their expert wording of bullet reassurances/uplifting pictures I have taped on counters and in phone album so always there. Also finding things you love doing at your capable realistic level like planting a flower in a pot instead of gardening with a shovel outside🙃 I actually cried yesterday because I couldnt reach something and the reaction of my body trying just hit that emotional nerve that I think all of us have a right to and I hope these suggestions can give some light and healing to everyone🌈