Billie, Thank you for sharing this. I can relate to all you’ve said. I too was out of energy, nurturing. I too am no longer a caretaker in a different way. My husband of 42 years died 6 weeks ago. I was planning a move together for more support. His death took me by surprise. I too have had guilt. Should I have moved sooner? Cared for him differently, better? No matter what we do, as you said so well, we can do hard things that bring joy. We can’t stop the decline. Keep bringing treats and surprises. He will still benefit from your gentle kindness. I think you will benefit later remembering what you did to bring joy to his life now. No matter our stage of caregiving, we miss our loved person in all the stages. I’ll be thinking of you and all on this support group with care. It’s a sad journey and we need each other. Blessings online friends.