I agree with some of the other comments here about discontinuing a benzodiazepine. I have been on Klonopin for 40 years and have gradually decreased the dose to the smallest amount daily at this point in my life. It is totally possible to not only reduce but discontinue if you do it very very slowly and with the support of talk therapy.
The issue with most people is more psychological than it is physical. The emotional and psychological dependence can be stronger than the physical dependence for a lot of folks. The simple change in reality (“i’m not taking it anymore”)
can cause anxiety. They are no longer in the care of the medication and it feels scary at first. Regardless of some of the popular opinion out there, it has been an extremely safe and helpful medication for me and I have had the luxury of an outstanding provider all these years.
I would encourage you not to feel badly about staying on it if it helps you and makes life just a little bit more tolerable. Have had many discussions over the years about the risk/reward of it all, and I think staying on the medication to live a better life is where I always seem to end up.
I don’t view it as being any different than having to take medication for diabetes or heart disease or cancer. If it’s something you need to function properly and have a better existence, then I think it’s worth it.
Best of luck.