Life CAN be good. It's in little moments.....when I look up and see a flock of Canada geese flying. Or visits with friends. I had such a good dream the other nite that I woke myself up with my laughter. My therapist and I both painted during my session last wk. It was very comforting to paint again.....soothing you know. I lost my partner of 22 yrs two yrs ago and my former therapist of 18 yrs in March. My 2 best validating and significant people in my life. Yes, I still cry as I'm doing now writing this. Find ways to take care of yourself, physically, emotionally or spiritually. Whatever works. Alcohol and illicit drugs may work in the moment but in the end the worst still comes back. You have to work THRU it not AROUND it. I've been sober almost 30 yrs now without one relapse. Thru my animals dying, my partner then therapist dying. I have to admit, I DID start smoking cigarettes again about 5 wks ago. I guess that's a slower death than with alcoholism but I'll quit. I have quit so many times. Once for 10 yrs and that's when my partner was still smoking.
I don't think anyone is really happy. But there are moments. Remember all the beautiful memories that u and your husband shared. Your Higher Power gave u those memories. Build new memories with your loved ones...your 🧡 friends. We can choose our friends!!! Try to make it a good day today, we choose much of our future and destiny!