Thank you for your good wishes. I think reconciliation with my younger son is now impossible because his wife does not want me in their life. I had hoped that he would put up a little fight because after all I am his mother, but he does not seem willing to do this. It still hurts, but I have reconciled myself that this is the way it is. On a happy note, my cousin is recovering nicely. This is her second stroke. The cat scans show no further damage since the first one and she should be discharged from the hospital soon. On the downside I am sorry to say that I trend negative. I am aware of this but can't seem to do anything about it - yet. Happy to say that I am healthy even at my great age. I am still amazed at how I got this old. It kind of snuck up on me. But I show no signs of dementia or any debilitating diseases. I really hate it when people say Are you still driving? Why shouldn't I be? I can drive without glasses and am at ease even on the busy freeways. I concentrate on what is happening around me and I am fine. I am giving serious consideration to contacting my therapist again. She will let me know if she is too busy with her father. I know I could use help because I feel like I am in quicksand and just stuck here.