The adventures you had sound wonderful. Sounds like your adult life was healing given your growing up circumstances. Although boys are less communicative than girls, they can be sweet and comforting at times. Hopefully you have good contact even by phone, with your sons. ( I have three grown sons). Perhaps you could suggest outings to local places as well as lunch with your friends when you get together. Maybe local art or music venues. Just something you share and look forward to each couple of weeks or so. Hopefully, your counselor will get back to her schedule once her family situation has stabilized so you can continue to see her. If not, maybe she could recommend someone else. I am glad you have reached out to the community here. There is definitely a peace when you can talk even if not in person. Wishing you peace and comfort with each new day.