@huckabyr I'm more than happy to be a sounding board as you discuss your situation. I do know that it is important to be proactive when you have any depression and/or anxiety. So I would encourage you to find an exercise program (doctor approved of course). Exercise is one of the better antidotes for anxiety and depression (the only side-effects of exercise are positive ones!). Swimming or just walking in the water can be good for spinal problems as there is no jarring/impact to the body. So if is possible to find a pool, check with your doc for his/her OK. Water exercise is one of my favorite things to do and makes me feel happier. Try getting involved in that which makes you happy and can give you satisfaction. Perhaps a support group would be helpful as well. Keep in touch. Mayo Connect is a great community.