Today has been ok. I have had a difficult 3 weeks. I scratched my eye while I was out of town. By the time I got home to an eye Dr it was infected. It's healing slowly. Of course the he eye Dr says it's an immune system issue. The oncologist doesn't think they are related. There was one week that I had 7 medical appointments.

I've been emotionally out of control. Not being able to see for 3 weeks is hard and lonely and painful.

The eye feels so much better and my mood improved.

I haven't been working much. I had to cancel the few appointments I set last two weekd. I don't know how people who have to clock in do it. I couldn't at least not last three weeks.

I have 2 more treatments. Then I guess it's a waiting game to see how this treatment worked. I'm supposed to have herceptin to target HER2+ as a maintenance. I'm insisting on a maintenance treatment. That is the only one I'm eligible for.

I tried to get an appointment with my primary Dr to see about anti anxiety meds.It will be 3 months. I couldn't get her staff to move on that so I messaged her to tell her what I need. I got no response. She told me last March there are opening every day. Fortunately I had an appointment with my functional Dr last week. He's also a MD and he prescribed something for me. It's so unfortunate that in order to get medical when you needed you have to see Drs you have to pay out of pocket. I am not happy with any of my providers. I was on a war path and wanted to fire them all. I won't find any that work differently. They are all in the clock for some money grabbing health system. I'm currently seeing Dr from 3 different health systems. They are all the same and inadequate.

My oncologist doesn't even manage his own staff. They report to someone within the system but not the Drs.

So I guess I have had nothing good to say so I'm trying to not say anything.